IJUST REALIZED THAT I AM GOING THOUGH A MID LIFE CRISIS, AND THAT IT HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR ALMOST THREE YEARS NOW.
I AM NOW 32 YEARS OLD AND TO MOST PEOPLE THAT IS YOUNG, BUT I HAD TO GROW UP EARLY AS A CHILD AND ACCEPT THINGS THEY WAY THEY WERE. I HAD MY FRIST DEPESSION IN OCTOBER OF LAST YEAR AND I WAS SO CONFUSED (STILL AM LOL) . I REALIZED ALL THIS TODAY. I COULD NOT LOOK INTO A MIRROR, AND STARTED TO GO OUT LATE JUST BECAUSE. I SHAVED MY HEAD, I STOPPED TALKING TO CERTAIN FAMILY MEMBERS. I WAS BECOMING UPSET FOR LITTLE THINGS AND BORED WITH ALL THE THINGS I USE TO DO. I TOOK UP OLD HOBBIES WENT TO THE BATTING CAGES AGAIN. I LOOK AT MY WIFE AND SOMEDAYS I LOVE HER AND THE NEXT I WANT TO LEAVE HER AND FIND A NEW WOMAN TO FOOL AROUND WITH. I NOTICE THAT I FEEL OLDER AND THAT MOST MY LIFE EVERYONE ALWAYS SAID THAT I WAS ALOT OLDER FOR MY AGE. SO WHEN I SAY THAT I AM GOING TOUGH THIS PEOPLE LAUGH AT ME SAYING THAT I AM TO YOUNG BUT PEOPLE FAIL TO REALIZE THAT I HAD TO BE AN ADULT AT A EARLY AGE AFTER MY FATHER LEFT.